A LITTLE TANTRUM BY JESSICA.....

As you all know, I just had a baby 4 1/2 weeks ago. So, a week after I had cute Shayne, my weight was down to 5 pounds over what I was when I got pregnant...I know, you all hate me right now. Anyway, Since that week, I have been on a binge fest full of cookies, brownies, ice cream, muffins....I think you get the gist of it. Anyway, I have gained back almost 10 pounds...in 4 weeks....I know!! I am a little upset at myself. But I can't stop...PLUS my girl scout cookies are coming today. I think I ordered 8 boxes. WHAT IS A GIRL TO DO IN THIS KIND OF SITUATION?? I can't wait for the weather to get warm so that I can go outside and get away from my pantry. I can't wait to get back some of my self control that I once had. I can't wait to maybe eat a healthy meal and feel full from it, and not crave my usual warm brownies and ice cream with chocolate syrup over it....Now, if you will excuse me, I need to go and eat another package of vanilla cookies with frosting in the middle all by myself before I really try to start my diet, or "life change" as some of you call it. Loves to all!!!

I'M A SOCCER MOM!!!

Noah started playing indoor soccer with a couple of his cousins. He loves the fact that he is on a soccer team. He doesn't really know how to play...his team is more like a heard of sheep. They just run together and go follow the ball. The best part is that when they actually get to the ball, most of them run away from it. There are a few on his team that are really good. Noah for the most part just runs with the crowd, but hey, at least he is having fun doing it right!!! Way to go Noah!!! We are so proud of you!!!

I'M RUNNING FASTER!!

I was watching Ellen today, as I always do, and P-Diddy was on. He had a quote that he told Ellen. He said "If you are still chasing your dreams, you better run faster." So I thought to myself, Self, are you still chasing your dreams? And my answer was yes, in a way I am. I am staying at home with my children now, which is my ultimate dream, but am I going to be able to stay home with them forever, or will I have to go back to work? I have friends that stay home that keep telling me that we just have to have FAITH that we can make it if I stay home, and so that is what I need to do. Have FAITH that things will work out for us. I need to RUN FASTER and WORK HARDER, have more FAITH that I will be able to stay home with my kids for as long as I need to. Thanks P-DIDDY for that wonderful thought!!